I know youre probably sleeping but i couldn't let myself go to sleep without saying all of the things I wanted to say. I know that these past few weeks have been so heavy for you, and when everything piles up it can make u feel trapped, like hurting yourself and disappearing is the only way to escape. but it's not bebe, as a person who has been there (or is in the same state multiple times a week) those thoughts come from feeling overwhelmed, not from who u acc are. allow urself to feel calli, to feel mad, sad, crazy, happy, whatever it is, but please try to be kinder to yourself today, when our mind is already drowning in emotions, taking care of our body acc helps our brain more than we think it does. I also want you to remember this, ❗you don't have to be on the brink of death for someone to care, you don't have to shrink yourself, you don't have to change yourself just to be worthy of love ❗ bebe, ur value is NEVER tied to looking like someone else or suffering enuf for ppl to notice you, you matter EXACTLY as you are. to anyone who says otherwise, fuck them, their opinion doesn't matter. I'm really really really proud of you getting through last night and being honest about ur feelings because that takes more strength than you realize. and to end this off, I will ALWAYS be here. I promise to stay, through the good, the bad, the weird, everything, cuz everything is worth going through as long as I'm w you. I'm always here to listen and to take the weight off your shoulders okie bebe? you are worth the world if not so much more. I love you to the moon and back my dearest, calli.